This was it.It was time.

A bustling road.Fast cars were moving,i turned left and right with fear.My heart beat so fast and loud,i could hear it even with the noise of the traffic.A huge truck passed by me,the wind from it forced me to take one step back.I took a deep breath.This was it.It was time.I closed my eyes for a moment,and looked up.

"It's okay honey,hold my hand,you'll be fine,i'll guide you okay,"

A father's comforting words to his 5 year old daughter.

~......~

Movies were always my favourite past time,until i knew the meaning of darkness.My fear grew each day,thanks to horror films that always end up with children in the dark,facing scary monsters that come out of nowhere,creeping from the window,or under the bed.Or even through walls,as i remembered that night from Nightmare at Elm Street.

I pulled up my blankets,but my eyes were still wandering around the room,looking for signs of any 'activity'.I swallowed a deep gulp after each breath,knowing that darkness was about to come and surround me.I glanced over the light switch.This was it.It was time.

"I'm switching off the lights already okay?"

My fear was clear through my eyes and trembling hands,hiding my body under the warmth of my blanket.

"Hehe,okay i will stay with you until you fall asleep.But you need to learn to face your fear honey.Don't be afraid,nothing will hurt you,"

My hand was held tight, throughout the night..

A mother's comforting words to her daughter's first time,sleeping in the dark.

~.......~

Longer & wider roads appeared in front of me.Speed limits were never a problem to these daredevils.Having been behind the wheel myself, i could understand why.What the heck,let's do this.This was it.It was time.I mustered enough courage,and took my steps onto the road when..

"Hey!Wait,what are you doing,hold my hand first!"

I pulled my hands away annoyed,and looked at him straight in eyes,

"Stop pulling me,I'm big enough to cross on my own."

A 17 year old daughter's hurtful words to her father.

~..........~

It was never easy to getting used to the absence of light.I needed to find a way out, i needed something to distract me from my fear,and replace light, with company.Thanks to invention of technologies,I was now able to reach out to people at times of darkness like this.This was it.It was time.I placed my fingers on the light switch, when my door opened.

And she just stood there,leaning on my door.Moments of silence surrounded the room.I had to break the awkward situation somehow.

"What are you doing here?"

"Why?i cannot be in your room anymore?"

"I didn't mean that,i just need my privacy please?" i replied with a loud sigh.

An 18 year old daughter's hurtful words to her mother.

~...........~

Roads and routes were never any of my strongest memories.Despite how weak i was before, i am now part of the daredevils behind the wheel.I insisted on putting myself on the driver's seat, and stepping on that gas,but i was denied.So i laid back relaxed on my passenger's seat instead,without any idea in mind that this would happen.

"Erm..which road is the way back home...?"

It hit me.There and then.His hands swerving the wheel,unable to decide and guide himself back to his home of more than 20 years.His hands that once had led me to courage,has fallen weak.This was it.It was time.

"It's okay Dad,don't worry.I'll guide and show you the way until we reach home okay.First turn left....."

A grown-up daughter's realization of her ageing father.

~............~

Being in a large crowd,in front of a large screen, was never to an elderly's liking, as i would assume.Weird how they are suddenly open to be excited about going to the cinema, to watch movies that are out of their era..obviously.Nonetheless, i gave in.I walked through the door into the dark room,without any idea in mind that this would happen..

"Dear God help me.....dear God help me...Oh my...Dear God help me.."

Her hands wandered in the dark,trembling,looking for solid ground to touch,with never ending whispers of help.

It hit me,there and then.Her eyes, fearing..what I feared before.This was it.It was time.

"It's okay Mum,just hold my hand.You'll be fine.I'll walk you to your seat okay,"

A grown-up daughter's realization of her ageing mother.

~..........~

PS: Life is a continuous circle of lines.One always has chances to make it up for their regrets,as long as the lines keep moving.Do not wait until the line has nowhere else to go..but to end with a fullstop.

PSS: i was actually writing this to Album Leaf's songs.Their songs really work well in giving my words never ending flow =))

Dreams do appear..

Dreams,is defined by men,as

" A series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep." To me, is that dreams not only occur during sleep,but..even when one is awake and alive,soul attached to the body. People say, dreams can come true.But while you are watching other people achieving theirs,have you ever took notice or wonder, where are the signs to lead you to your vivid dreams. Take a second to look around,listen...and see.Sometimes,our minds are too tuned to watching out for the beauty and glitters of the world, that you are blinded to your dreams,appearing to you,right before your eyes.They do appear in a different form,showing you if you let your dreams slip away, that's how it will be. Take a different approach towards dreams & motivation.See the change,that needs YOU to fight for your dreams, for the better of you & the rest of the world. =)) *Do take note cuz i suddenly had the urge to ramble listening to album leaf's Window,HAHA!*

who are you, GOD?

I would just like to share a video of an activist that i truly look up to;Marina Mahahir.

Marina Mahathir: Attacks on Ambiga in bad taste

She speaks sense and doesn't just lash out comments or remarks that are stupid or foolish.Arguments should be constructive and intelligent if one wants to show a greater deal of civilization & progress without losing grounds.

I totally agree with her opinion.People who resort to personal attacks are (shamefully to me) shallow and make their immaturity & foolishness 'shine' even more.

Oh heYYYyyy...wait!!.....look at this fine fella here, isn't he/she just as smart and foretelling as he/she can be...Awwww....



Hebatnya sorang nih, boleh nampak NUR kat muka orang.Jom tepuk tangan 10 jari kat kehebatan dia *applause*.

PS: That's not a personal attack.That just plain harmless sarcasm.But it can never beat the greatness of your remarks, that's for sure.

Berjaya Youth Short Film Comp..

OPEN TO ALL who desires to tell a good story through the medium of short film.

This is what i like about this competition you know,it's all about the storytelling,which should always be the core of starting and making a film work, rather than overdoing too much graphics that we lose our audience & message along the way.The Berjaya Youth Short Film is one that i would LOVE to participate in if i had the time...but since i don't (or just pray some day this month i will try!), I want to make sure i spread out the news of it!


Here are a few links for you to know more.Do check out the other details as well.

Contest Themes: Tell a Good Story

Submission Rules

The interesting part to me is not just the first prize of Rm40k and a canon camera,check out the judges man!!Two of my idols among them,Afdlin Shauki & Ah Niu!!Amazing directors and storytellers i tell ya.

Plus this is not just some simple film competition since the duration of the whole process until the shortlisting of the Top 5 ends about in November 2011.However,aspiring participants only have till 8th September 2011 to submit their entries.

It's for individual entry, which means everybody can enter if you're within the age limit of 18-25 years old =))

So please please please get your minds creative and shoot something!Maximum duration of 5 minutes only, there's no minimum for this competition.The themes are so close & related to our lives ; inspire, make a difference, & loving earth!

It would be so much fun and good for your portfolio too in the future, get your work recognised early no matter how greenhorn or tech-idiot you are, there must always be a place to start, this could be it!

Good Luck! =D

PS: Do watch Nell Ng's "Say No to Shark's Fin" feature video too,hilariously educational!!HAHA!

Off to Bangkok for 5 months!

Nope,i'm not going for a holiday.Purlezzz....i'm going for a one-semester exchange programme to Chulalongkorn University.

It's actually an ASEAN Scholarship for communication students given out by CU (Chulalongkorn Uni) to ASEAN countries.

I'm lucky enough to be chosen, together with other 5 students from Cambodia, Indonesia, Vietnam, UK, and France.

I was at first sceptical. I was encouraged to apply by my faculty advisor, i wasn't expecting to make it through.Applicants needed to write a short essay of why they are interested in this programme. Then i received a response from CU for a skype-interview. All that happened during the hiatus of shooting the short film.You can say i was freaking exhausted after driving long hours (from Alor Star to UPM) for the first time and immediately rushing to a nearby McDonalds just to make it for the interview.At a stressful state like that, i was slowly losing my interest of going for this exchange,but i was polite & friendly enough during the interview.I do remember one remark by the interviewer, "You sound like a Singaporean". HAHHAA!

I had a feeling i did bad for the interview,and didn't hope much of getting it (considering the chances where i was competing with other universities around ASEAN too).Besides that,i felt so close to my team already, we bonded so much.Plus all the coming projects next semester, i didn't want to lose out.

The results came out and i was one of the receivers.My heart sank to be honest. I wasn't ready to leave yet, with so much in mind, i became restless.The decision of having to extend my studies for maybe a year if go for this exchange made things even worse. However, my team,friends & family gave the support i needed and told me it was okay.Accepting this would be the best decision to make because i've been given a chance that is hard to come by.

So,i built my confidence & interest back and walahHHh! I'm about 50% ready to depart on 2nd of August.

Yup, you got that right.Puasa dengan raya pun dekat sana lerr...Sayu tuh sayu jugak,tapi takpa la, ambil sebagai pengalaman. Dahla u OLSSss tak habis2 suruh i hantar 'salam perantauan' dekat Utusan or Berita Harian,HAHA!...Just for the sake of representing Malaysia, my mum & i rushed to make me a pair of baju kurung & baju kebaya to bring to Bangkok.Haha.Finally,i have my own kebaya! After so many years of "tahun depan nak pakai".

I will be staying off-campus,which means this will also be my first time renting an apartment & staying outside,haha!.....But,not going to be so happy about that since most of my classes start at 8am...it's going to be DREADFUL for me to wake myself up so early in the morning to catch a train or bus to CU -_-"

Oh well,wish me luck!!

PS: Mak dah pesan awai2,jgn carik chenta kt sana...sedihnyaa..baru excited nak cuci mata..pffff

Just in case you are interested to apply for this scholarship as well in the future,here's the link.
ASEAN Scholarship details