many times a fool

Many times a fool i have been in love,and knowing my nature,i know i would be a fool again too in years to come.But yes,it hurts when you've been fooled by the one you trust the most,had faith in the most,have hopes in the most...or had.I honestly thought it could be again,but i guess....not anymore.I know you're sorry,and i am too the most.I may be your best,and you may be my best,but before engraving that into our heads,why not open our hearts,minds and eyes to the sea of possibilities out there.Rest assured,no hard feelings,we're grown ups,everything's fine =)

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone




Oh I don't believe it,
That I could be so deceiving
And bringing you down to feel this lack of loyalty.

You were a song in my head,
The warmth of the sheets in my bed.
A story forever told, but never old,
A warm arrival never left so cold.

Don't blink, don't close your eyes,
But most of all don't apologize.
It's me who's got the demons to wrestle now.

Should it be me or you who should be singing this?

PS:Rasa bahagia sangat2 disayangi kwn2 ^_^.....

it's over?

STPM is over,but exams are never over don't you agree?Who agrees please say ZET UNIK!!Seriously,few months from now,i'll be like most of you,complaining non-stop about monthly tests and loads of assignments.Even old people.....Ooopps,elderly have to go through 'ujian penilaian' or 'ujian naik pangkat',so..i guess the hype and excitement in me are fading away slowly.I'm not as jolly and jumpy like when i finished spm few years back anymore.

The boys and most of the girls were busy signing their uniforms and snapping photos,not forgetting firecrackers!!but i didn't have the mood like i used to anymore.I walked off to go home earlier.

so....WHAT'S NEXT???

Surely,plans are flooding my mind,macam besa laa,plan je byk,haha!

1)3 hours of non-stop karaoke
2)Mandi kat tambun!oh yah,p kayak gak dgn kwn2!!
3)Penang/KL trip
4)Maybe meet up with dayang in melaka if possible.
5)Recording full band tracks with my trio group,Aurora.An E.P too maybe?haha!
6)Pujuk2 my dad to buy a video cam as soon as possible,so that i can post kiddish cooking videos
on youtube!!Or maybe,homemade music videos too!
7)Compose a few good songs with kak arina maybe?*wink wink*
8)Self-teach myself the keyboard,and master it as soon as possible,duk berhabukkk jaa sejak
beli dulu.
9)Get a job next year!!!(karaoke box is my 1st choice currently)


I'll try to make all of them possible....but don't you think my plans involve a whole sum of moolah@moneyyy,hahah!!

Earlier i was replaying My Heart Will Go On (titanic) over and over again all the sudden.ahakss.Pastu duk sama2 emo and layan dengan aina@my titanic mate!


Just now,i went out for supper with my dad.3 ironic occurences happened.

1)A small young chinese boy caught my eye.He was running around a big tree,endlessly!duk tawaf pokok tuh plak!And swerving as if he was drifting on corners,with his feet!He then gave this gloryful and proud smile when he caught me looking at him!HAHA...ayoyo....oh how simple and....weird fun came about at a young age ey?I remember how weirdo i was back then too.Running in between hung up clothes in shopping malls,spinning hangers,throwing hats around the living room with my bro,and writing my name on the wall in corners my mum wouldn't see.All these brought me self-satisfaction,giggles and fun back then!Even talking to my pillows kept me from being lonely (i'm weird,i know).Now,simple fun seems...hard to come about anymore.

2)I told my dad about my intention to work at a karaoke box centre.Immediately he gave this 'i'm your father-your my daughter-you listen to me-ego-raised eyebrows' face!!with a big yet in between breaths NO.Then,i tried convincing him that parents should see the place,and how friendly the place is first,before giving a decision!Don't be stereotyped just because you hear "karaoke centre".It's is SOoo not a bistro or pub.Few minutes later,i asked to pass by and drop by the place for a while,so i could note down the contact number for job vacancies.When we passed by,his immediate response was, "WAHHH...EHH,NOT BAD AH THIS PLACE..NOT BAD.".......HAH!!!!.....ironyyy ohh ironyyy!!

3) I turned on the radio,redfm of course.and guess what song???"Late night love songs,only on redfm..."..............................................................




















*a common flute melody*





*everyyyy night in my dreammss...i see youu...i feel youuuuuuuuuu*



HAHAHAHA....meluat sunggoh,baru tadi kat rumah duk sebak dah dengar lagu titanic nih.Masuk2 keta,takdir nak uji sunggoh emosi diriku,muahaha!Sorry to say,but i had to hold myself from falling deep into the melody of titanic.hahah....oh yess i'm so pathetic.


PS:Ohh shiatttt....i have to get my ass (or mostly my hands) working on the school magazine!!I have 5 days before it has to be sent for printing.Ucapan editor tak tulis lagi,hahaha!....Heck with the norm,i'm going to write my editorial speech in english this year for syed omar.At least a slight change from the past magazines.

Erase and Rewind

Phillip LaRue's Erase and Rewind really attracted me,not only for the lyrics,but also the story behind it.He wrote it for a friend who once told him about his attempted suicide he planned out.I guess all of us can relate this song to our own personal experiences,even if it doesn't require suicide.Sometimes,our friends just do things that we never expected them too,isn't that right?

Under you, under me
You and I are the same
This skin and bones hides our souls
We're suspended in between

It's over you, it's over me
We couldn't reach it if we tried
Yet you try every time

Why did you say, that?
Why don't you stay, and
Let me remind you
Let me remind you

Cuz I didn't see this coming
No I did not
I thought that I knew you
I guess I was wrong
Is this a dream?
Am i away?
Or did I lose you today
Tell me there's time
To erase and rewind

I won't look back to our past
Cause if I do then it might rain
It's funny how all we have now
Are some memories like loose change

Why did you say, that?
Why don't you stay, and
Let me remind you
Let me remind you

That I didn't see this coming
No I did not
I thought that I knew you
I guess I was wrong
Is this a dream?
Am i away?
Or did I lose you today
Tell me there's time
To erase and rewind

If you meant what you said,well then fine
And if you meant that you did well then fine, goodbye!

But i don't want to say that,
i just want to stay and
I want to remind you
That I still love you

I didn't see this coming
No I did not
I thought that I knew you
I guess I was wrong
Is this a dream?
Am i away?
Or did I lose you today

Please tell me there's time
Tell me there's time
To erase and rewind

PS:....damn it pengajian am was tough,one more paper even feels like total torture..! T_T

simple things.

Out of the blue,i got tired of trying to figure out serious meaningful songs to write,in the end,i ended up writing some cheesy cliche cute love song!hahahaha!out of the ordinary...so i better save it here,just in case i lose my doctor-like handwritten lyrics,HAHA.

Morning comes,
with the sound of birds and hums,
and there you are beside of me,
dreaming just so perfectly.

With opened eyes,
you would greet me with a smile,
then a kiss to start my day,
around the street i'd dance
and i would sway!

cuz all these simple things that you do,
are more than enough to make me move,
and to your name i would sing,
of all the joy you could bring,
to complete my life.

In your car,
a mixed tape of what we are,
keeps on playing on repeat,
I can't stop my tapping feet.

Looking back,
at memories of how we met,
you were trying to catch my name,
but instead you ran into
a window glass pane!

All these simple things that you do,
are more than enough to make me move,
and to your name i would sing,
of all the joy you could bring..

You make up my mind when i am blur
then all the clouds would dissapear,
you would hold my hand in front of them,
proving that we could make amends,
to complete our lives...

~originally by zetty~

ngeeee.....