mmm whatcha u say,that u only meant well..

well of course you didn't,mmmm whatcha say...what did you say??

Okay,this jason derulo feat imogen heap song has been stuck in my head since the first time i heard in on the radion few days ago.Now i can't get enough of it!ahakkss..

Oh yahh,talking about what someone said.I got a quite...inappropriate comment at really,the inappropriate time.That aside first.

Since STPM is just less than one week away,ada la majlis bacaan Yassin,solat hajat,restu dan doa.(there's no Qiamullai...sigh..how i miss those days,feels incomplete without Qiamullai).
We did our bacaan Yassin and solat hajat at the Masjid Sultanah Bahiyah.Upon reaching,i was reminded of the time when my friends and i used to walk from SMK Sultanah Bahiyah till the masjid for the same occasion.hehehe...but it seemed more..joyful and laughable at that time.Of course,i still did make a fool out of myself again this time,no exception.

1: i didn't realised i was crossing in front of a mak cik who was praying sunat,when i wanted to invite my mum to sit next to me.I honestly didn't know,because she was sitting down,suddenly nesia hushed me,asking me to look at the mak cik...i gasped as i saw she was at her tahiyat akhir.Mintak maaf byk2 mak cikk,tak perasan,sunggoh2 x perasan..huhu ~_~

2: i accidentally knocked down Nesia's air yassin!!it was not intentional okay!!i wanted to lean at the wall,i didn't know her bottle was there.Damn embarrasing okay,the bottle gave a loud thumping sound when it fell,(dahla waktu berdoa masa tuh,kira mmg suma senyap ah)!I got stares from almost half of the people in the masjid,the sharpest one from nesia's aunty who was sitting next to her...damn malu...ayoyo...

3:stupid mistake,but i terlupa nak hajat masa solat hajat,ehhh laaa.....!!!!!!!sygg nyaa!!!!!!imam tuhh p Allahuakbar truih lepas sujud,tak tunggu lama skit or what,so i pun terikut!!!aiyohhh!!!naik2...tiba2..i thought to myself,"....wasn't i supposed to hajat just now?..."......goshh did i slam my forehead after that....

I guess i'm still...akar malang and clumsy that way wherever i go huh,*sob sob*

Today,we had our majlis restu bersama guru dan murid.As usual,salam2 and minta maaf all that la.I'm the sporting type and i wanted to salam all the teachers regardless of gender.And since i saw the boys salam with the lady teachers,i thought i wanted to have a go then.Dengan semangatnya i went over to my seni teacher (who's a man),and held out my hand,

"cikgu,nak salam bleh?"
"ohh,xbleh."......

okayyy,malu sat,haha!!!i'm the only one to have actually attempted that,but hey,worth a go right!Niat yang penting,ngee~
Then,peluk2 and cium2 laa among female teachers,but when it came to my sejarah teacher,cikgu wan,i asked her forgiveness and for her to pray that i could answer sejarah (since it's my weakest subject always).And she said,

"you can do it zet,you bleh dapat A nihh,yakin.."

*sweat drop*
*gulp*

A for sejarah stpm?....AMIN,but i don't want to put my hopes too high though.

Few minutes before it was time to go home,i was just enjoying the view from my class and looking down,with another 2 classmates of mine.There was a myvi below our eyesight,and a simple conversation started off.

Miss 1: Ishhh,aku suka laaa myvi SE nihh,stai gilaaa
Miss 2: tuh ahhh..aku suka gak
(i was looking at it too,but kept silent)
Miss 1: Warna dia aku suka laa hat nihh,nampak stai cena xtau,nmpak mcm fuyoo..silver dia
mcm lain,cantik menyerlah.sukaa ahh
(i was thinking to myself,it's the same colour as the myvi i have been driving her around with..why was she acting as if it was the first time seeing such a myvi SE)
Miss 2: Eh zet,myvi u SE gak kan?
Me: a'ahh...sebijik la mcm yg tuhhh,kaler tuh jugak.
Miss 1: ehhh,sama ka??Tapi awat naik myvi hang tak rasa best pun.,haha.
(then she trailed off saying...)
Miss 1 : huh!!xpaa,nanti bila aku kerja,nak beli myvi nih takdak paa laa..hohoho!

I didn't notice or felt anything at that time,or what to respond,how to respond.Later when i was in the car with my mum...it struck me, "ehhh...apa motif dia cakap mcm tuh kat i ek??..."....Baru laa i nak rasa marah and annoyed,goshh...my response is so damn slow.ahah!!Amoeh2,slama nih i duk tumpangkan dia,bwak p tgk wyg skali and all that,antaq balik,tiba2 nak comment mcm tuhhh.Sorry laa,i dont want to ungkit if i can,but,that's just how i felt,and how my mum said too.

"zetty,you need to learn to be sarcastic next time,let them know how you feel about their comments..you should've just said 'lain kali toksah duk naik dh la dgn i,duk kata x best'.." said my mum.

Well...i will try to be,but it's just not me...to say sarcastic words and laugh it off,i don't know what are the right words to use.I'm not really the sarcastic type,but if i want to get angry,i'll really get mad and start scolding honestly straight to their faces.It has happened before.I'm more of the hot-tempered type.Sarcasm?rarely.

I'll try to be as positive as i can for these few weeks,even towards people's attitude.I'll take that comment as,a harmless joke from my friend,with no intention of hurting me or sending a message to me in a way (though she has done this kind of attitude multiple times to most of us already).

*heart beating fast*


Oh my gucci.......LESS THAN A WEEK!!!!!!!SO NOT READY!!!HAVEN'T READ ENOUGH....CONSTANTLY FEEL LIKE GIVING UP AND LEAVING IT TO FATE...slap my face please..... T_T......